Thank you

Haven’t written in ages, the first culprit is laziness and the second is business. There is some progress in process England I can share with all of you; we have officially ordered the babies passports! Once they are here we can get mummy’s visa and book the tickets! Less than three months and we are gone! My room consists of a matric and a temporary couch which is sold. The boys are the same. We have sold all of our garage worthy bits and pieces and bit by bit we say bye bye to our furniture!

It amazes me how things can change! I was just reading through my old diary I wrote years ago when the babies were just about to be born. Every day I counted down to the day they would be here and I counted down the weeks until we got our dog flora. I read back over my friend problems and how much I struggled with twelve year old arguments. I mean, what twelve year olds don’t have silly little arguments with friends? How much I have changed though! How much stronger I am. Through what we have experienced I think I have learnt that closure is a very rare thing. With my friends out of the picture and no closure there it has just shown me how much stronger I am not letting those things get me down. If I had been experiencing the things we are now such as the waiting, the not knowing, the relationships lost both in the family and friends I would not be coping. That is why God has put us where we are at this moment in time. Because this moment in time is where we can cope, where we can grow and improve and thrive, three weeks to a year earlier we might be reacting differently.

We are where God wants us to be and I wouldn’t change that for the world. I couldn’t change the experiences we have had or the things we have done or where we are now and what we are working towards, I wouldn’t change it for anything. And I wouldn’t be here with anyone else but my beautiful family. My mother is the most loving selfless person I know. My dad has a strong heart and being pulled into his arms is the most reassuring thing. My siblings are pure happiness and joy. They are life; full of potential. And God, God gave them all to me. To me! What more can I say other than thankyou? Thank you to the Father who places this amazing family in my life, thank you to Him who leads us in process England and thank you to Him to brings us into his protective arms and never lets us go.